
tutto quello che vedi qui
all you see here
self portrait
watercolour on arches
cp 300gsm
38 x 57 cm
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It was time i tried a self portrait, and this one from a photo taken last month inspired these words below, and for some hours today inspired this watercolour you see here.
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senza maschera - without mask
no trucco - no makeup/trick
no deceiving the truth
open eyed
looking straight into the eyes of the person who is willing to look back
written by
patricia vannucci
la perugina
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all you see here
makes me who i am
where i have been,
yesterday, today, tomorrow
where i am
where i will go
what i have seen, beautiful and not so
what i have touched
who has touched me
my memories
those i want to keep
those i'd rather forget
my dreams
secret and known
what i hold in my heart
things i have heard
what I have spoken
what i have held in my hands
what i have lost and found
these things make me who i am
i do not know how to be another
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It is very difficult to know when to stop working on a painting - this was one of the many lessons today and over the last 24 hours it seems.
I worked on it some more and perhaps should have left it alone, living with it before making any further adjustments or decisions.
Each painting provides an opportunity to learn about ones self...about their ability... about their faith in what they do... about their thought processes... for me now it is more than just the painting it seems... and this also was the lesson.
I was most distressed over this yesterday and last night when i posted this here, perhaps feeling vulnerable as it was my first serious attempt at a self portrait and in a medium i still know very little about.
These are my thoughts which i leave here.
'these things make me who i am
i do not know how to be another'
Tuesday March 10, 2009